mon raison d'être

2007-04-09T20:31:00.000+08:00

e to the m to the o

"that is so fetch": NOT
thought i wasted away my life when everyone's been making
so many achievements and grades and certificates.

turns out, YES I DID>

2007-02-06T00:14:00.000+08:00

OMGDNESS.
fly away you evil crap

go

away.

let me make it clearer A W A Y.

2006-11-07T14:32:00.000+08:00

[returns.]

how wonderful life seems when you see one through a test-tube!
sometimes you just think you're living the happiest times of your life- come to think of it,it's the worst.

and no, I am not emo.

2006-08-25T21:35:00.000+08:00

The wonders of sleepless nights;

it's pretty weird because I am back to blogging after 41days .
Rather cool huhhh? I've got a xanga nw but I've been hardly updating both.
Just saw a cool stuff at fang's blog that I haven't been up to since i was in secondary school?

WHAT DOES YOUR NAME MEAN?

A : YOU'RE A HOTTIE
B : you are loved by alot of ppl
C : you're wild and crazy
D : You have trouble trusting people
E : You are always fun when it comes to meeting new people
F: People totally adore you
G : You are very friendly and undestanding
H : You have very good personality and looks
I : Love is what u are deeply in
J : Everyone loves you
K : You like to try new things
L : You always make other people smile when you smile
M : You are handsome, and sexy
N : your love is unforgetable
O : You love foreplay
P : You are very friendly and understanding
Q :You are a hypocrite
R : Someone loves you
S : People think you are so sexy
T : You are one of the best in love
U : You are really chill
V: Your friendliness attracts people
W : You are very broad minded
X : You never let people tell you what to do
Y : you make every experience great
Z : You're Super cool

// I have like three names?!

[CECIL]
C : you're wild and crazy pretty true.
E : You are always fun when it comes to meeting new people hmm.
C : you're wild and crazy there's a reason behind repetition huhh?
I : Love is what u are deeply in don't quite think so.
L : You always make other people smile when you smile aww that's nice.

[SESSY]
S : People think you are so sexy HAHA.
E : You are always fun when it comes to meeting new people 2x!
S : People think you are so sexy UHM YEAHHHH..
S : People think you are so sexy NOT FUNNY.
Y : you make every experience great huh?

[SE SIL]
S : People think you are so sexy NO COMMENT
E : You are always fun when it comes to meeting new people 3x!

S : People think you are so sexy ...
I : Love is what u are deeply in AGAIN?!
L : You always make other people smile when you smile 2x!

- haha , okayy whatever.
I am drained of sleep ; I am the walking zombie.

2006-07-13T18:16:00.000+08:00

I'm thinking;;
may be, I should just close down my blog. I hardly have time to manage both sites and plus, I don't think anyone ever comes. haha, the one thing "bad" about not having a tagboard is that - you dunno if anyone actually comes. *shrugs*

I LOVE JOJAEJIN! <3>

Let me talk about language arts todayy (:
Basically all the stuff we're tested on *WHEW* can be summarised into :

THE WORLD IS FULL OF CRAP.
THERE IS NO TRUTH.
EVERYONE IS PISSED OFF.
WE DON'T GIVE A SHIT ABOUT BORDERS.

THE WORLD IS NOT A VERY CLEAR-CUT PLACE.

THE WORLD IS FULL OF CONFUSING SHIT.

EVERYONE IS SICK OF THE WORLD ALTHOUGH THEY TRY HARD TO SMILE.

NOBODY CARES ABOUT MODERNISM.

see what a wonderful , simple summary is that! :D

- sometimes it just makes you feel like . when you think no one cares about you.I bet it's not just me.

2006-07-02T20:30:00.000+08:00

come to realise, it's been LONG
yupp, and I think I'm back to blogging once again.
nothing much to say really because since school re-opened, my life's been hell boring as usual.

It just really goes down the drain doesn't it?
Face it ; Life is when you want something so bad and you just cannot have it.

2006-06-21T23:32:00.000+08:00

Hello world (:
so it's been the last few days of summer vacation, and I would have to admit- nothing much was accomplished as I planned. *sigh* as always, it seems.
I guess I've really gotta improve on self-control - don't get tricked by temptations so easily.

Today being the last day of the web design course, I got started on the web folio the moment I got home (putting in the junk I mean). And trust me, after a solid hour working on it , I got so pissed off and confused that I deleted everything except my pretty buttons.
Dreamweaver confuses me , I'm sure they wont' mind if I use another programme (:
They can't blame me anyway because if they forced me to submit a presentable webfolio in working condition done by dreamweaver, I'd be dead due to stress .

Anyway it was fun to work with the Fireworks thingy cuz they'd real cool brushes and it was my favourite to work with the rollover stuff because I could create cool buttons! yayy ;)

Great. D4 to SCHOOL and I thought someone said time is plentiful.
yeah right, I still have a pile of work to do!

ohh well, we know that the world is full of shit!

2006-06-20T19:35:00.000+08:00

The nearer it gets, the more you dread it;

-or so it seems .

anyway, managed to finish off Day2 of our webdesign course with pretty much success.

I still don't like the way my web page turns out, but we've got time til 14th July so shan't be that big of a problem.

@#$%^&*@^@^@^!

you'll probably know what thats all about ; it starts with an L.

off to watch some TV now before late-night mugging.
Last day of course tml! (:

2006-06-19T22:23:00.000+08:00

One more match to go ; WE CAN.

It was a draw between Us and the French 1:1. I mean, I have to admit - it is miraculous that we didn't lose so badly to such a great team. They've got peop like Zidane, Henry and the players are all so skilled and known. Certainly, we weren't no match for'em. But so much thanks to our goalie who did such a fab job in saving the numberous shots attempted by France ; even the one that some people commented were very sneaky.

Hey, but the referee didn't give a yellow card to the player who kicked and tore open one of our youngest player's ears . so I guess it's more or less balanced out though I still have personal feelings for that referee. Ohh well, it's over now. just one more match to go.

It's kinda sad that I can't type korean words on blogger because it comes out as some gibberish.

Less than a week left of holidays - we're back to school in exactly 6 days.

ohhh.

CRAP.

for once I am actually NOT gonna talk about work because it is very frustrating.

oh, the icon of the day : Frapuccino!

Starbucks is my new love for the time being because it makes me happy.
* of course not forgetting my loved ones - I meant the new love in FOOD district :)

web d course was quite ....

I mean, dreamweaver is something that I didn't like much 3 years ago and I still don't.

2006-06-15T18:06:00.000+08:00

Never want it to end;
Changed skin AGAIN. and this time it's really customized by me so I hope I'll be able to stick to it for sometime, really.

I've been having this POLO craze for sometime now; a WHITE POLO tee is the first on my wishlist for some strange reason I do not know, then i found the icon above! (though I don't really favor that particular color)

Well, good times do pass like a breeze aye? I have about two weeks or so til I go back to school, and I just realised, I haven't signed up for bass lessons! dang. there goes my "accomplishment" and I'm doomed for another two months til the Dec hols.

ohh, and yayy GOOD NEWs ; korea beat togo 2:1! :)
but the peop were kinda upset because we played really BAD and last min we cld have scored another but we withdrew, just to drag time til it's over. It was quite a piss off to all koreans I think. I just hope we won't be beaten SO BADLY by France, with Zidane there! :[

Great, I 've just wasted two weeks of my precious holidays on NOTHING except chocolates, peanut butter crackers, trip to library, dramas , world cup, 1000piece puzzle , chinese lessons, slacking and cyworld!
- not to forget the darling assignments that are happily waiting for me somewhere in my file!

GRRR. I wanna go to a good U so that I can live a happy life aft I graduate.
a really random thought of the day :p

2006-06-12T22:10:00.000+08:00

Holiday food craze!
well , managed to get a day off and drop by at serena's for some JD and well, chocolate!
walked over to Siglap later in the day to fetch our beloved Don Juan DeMarco. haha X) then got bought food and came back and SHE MADE ME RUN AFTER THE BUS. *shrugs*
I guess I missed all that talking and crazing out on food and other, topics. :)

I decided I am still gonna stick to this skin for sometime because I am simply too lazy to change it. C'mon, you can't blame me ; as much as I hate to say, but I am in a HOLIDAY MOOD.
and then here I am, freaking out about two assignments which I can't do (I don't think I can) and only TWO weeks left! GARHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! :o

what's with the freaking out you say ; honestly I have no idea why too.

I kinda miss school - I hate to admit it but my hols has been BORING without much action because I wasn't able to raise funds for my guitar lessons and was stuck home trying to work out ART of the diff periods; geek.

there's really nothing much going on except the WORLD CUP, perhaps which is making like half the world go crazy now (or more). I'm okayy with it, but it's not BIG enough to spice up my hols y'know? Korea against Togo tml - never heard of the TOGO country before, but we better win; I can't believe we lost to Ghana 3-1.

Craze is the new trend

2006-06-09T18:35:00.000+08:00

I don't like this skin.
and I don't like assignments either.

i hate being not able to go out.

2006-06-07T16:14:00.000+08:00

Supermario and puzzles.
Hullo :) It's been a week since holidays have begun! And .... I haven't done much besides almost completing the 1000pieces puzzle! and yes, it was supposed to make me feel more accomplished. ohh well.
I've decided to restart my other webbie so do take a look if you have time ; and those smarter bunch of you could try to figure out how to leave a "tag" under the visitor section.
:: http://minihp.cyworld.nate.com/pims/main/pims_main.asp?tid=45788927
[name and password is to be just written down on the spot] :)
I think I'll go tml to develop the photos of FISHEYE. the FIRST 36 shots !
it better be good!
ohh well, i know, the new skin's kinda ugly? I dunno, I'm kinda looking out for those that are colorful and this seemed pretty enough for now.
And YES, stop the super mario obsessions! - because you know you'll never win me :P

I suppose I gotta get started on assignments soon?

2006-06-04T23:04:00.000+08:00

LomoFISHEYE of SESSYPOO(c) 06.02.2006

Cheesy, but I have to say ; family is the best thing.
Japan trip accounts, or else I'd have nothing to refer back to in future.

#Day1
plane ride was pretty boring, I have to say; besides watching how Yiliang can't even pass a single level of super mario X) and the seats were so uncomfy that I couldn't sleep!
the only memorable thing I remember about day1, was nice lunch near some river, the long and sickening(almost) bus rides which took up almost half the day, and the wonderfully amazing black eggs that were dipped in the sulphur pools of Owakudani boiling valley!
cultural night - we've came in 2nd! -I mean, yeahh that was pretty amazing
in our yukatas and powdered face. whee (: we did have a good laugh watching everyone do their stuff! and a session of mass dance AND mass public bath which i missed due to time constraint.
-hey, but we've got plenty in korea so who cares? haha I've been there done that. :D

#Day2
I made it to 7th station of Mount Fuji!
the beautiful sight of nature struck me once again, and everything was just, too BEAUTIFUL to be described by my words due to lack of vocabulary in language. =X well I did come down in one piece and managed to buy this BIG pieces of bubblegum(COOL STUFF!) and ate soft ice cream!
moved to Tokyo - hotel bellegrande, Lovely hotel with a really nice toilet and a proper shower. :) I admit, I'm materialistic! had a group sharing session in OUR room.

#Day3
was late in the morning, screwed up the day a little but went to the sumo stable where we saw some serious sumo trainings. Scary, but made me realise sumo wrestlers aren't just big in size, they've got some big dreams and passion too. cool.
then went to Ghibli museum, which I really wanted to own cuz it was really pretty inside and out. NICE PLACE really.

#Day4
the day where almost everyone waited for EXCEPT me, the whole day off at disneyland, tokyo.
surprisingly I was able to take on a few rides. those roller-coasterish ones, and I survived!
ate loads of stuff and walked around seeing loads of stuff. shopped for souvenirs and bought this big puzzle1000pieces big! the only turn-off of the day was losing my mouse ears that was worth 600yens.Bummer.

#Day5
Trip to Honda wasn't all that boring, we've got to watch ASIMO perform and caught some cool ads that I really thought was cute. =) and yes, lots of cool motorbikes were on display and saw mr chad going crazy over'em, trying evry single of them "ON" like clothes. lol
the most awaited, SHIBUYA! but didn't get to shop at all those places for all those things I wanted because none of my group mates wanted to shop for REAL stuff after we've done the group challenge thing which ended pretty quick. but I bought my LOMO fisheye cam so I was pretty happy. though now I am seriously regretting not buying the colorsplash. blehh :(
I'm gonna go back again! >< I have to, for SHOPPING!
dinner at shinjuku was pretty cool , took lift up to dinner place with these cool jap guys that looked like those you see in cartoons (that looks like gangsterish peop) but they're immitating my "english" as they left. -_-" funny people.

#Day6
miraikan had some cool exhibits- ying decided there's no way i could be a doctor after the "pokings" I made to the exhibit's head;; lunch was really FUN! sat with beau,jo,kel,jonathan,yiliang,ying (serena and amelia joined later) and we're like the first to reach the lunch place. =D played this weird number game thing that turned out to be really fun because there were forfeits to eat umeboshi and this strange,gross seaweed sidedish. I only got it once, unlike poor kel who got it several times. :( on the bus to Narita , I joined'em and played something called 99. this time, I was always the first to be out! >_<
got sick on the plane after food but thanks to some pill from jerald, got better :) I was choking on the water as I took the pill and ivan was like asking me if I was okayy and offered to give me hello panda. :) really sweet of you ivan! watched him play blackjack for a while then discovered he's even worse than yiliang on mario before sleeping. During landing he was sick and I kinda got worried in return. both of us had ear popping like crazy. =X sucky .

spotted my parents at once , which was kinda freaky but it felt good to be home :)
I missed my bed so much! X)
and my dad's leaving tml, so kinda sad. :( ohh well, getting late, gotta get some rest now.
=)

2006-05-27T17:54:00.000+08:00

It is tomorrow.
it feels kinda yukky when something you actually looked forward to in the beginning of the year seems so , pointless and worthless now.
ohh well. can't believe I am leaving tomorrow. I admit, I think I 'll miss my mommy and my daddy! (: haha so cheesy, but yeahh I mean it's like my first trip away from them for more than 5 days.
what I am even more afraid of , is that , what if I get hurt in Japan? not physically hurt but.... yeahh.

Let's just hope that I have a good time and come back smiling , saying that

"heyy that wasn't so bad after all!"

because if i don't, I am afraid I'll hate it even more.

2006-05-23T20:02:00.000+08:00

Sometimes you feel like you should just be thankful for once.
you know, you're complaining all the while then you come to realise maybe you should JUST be thankful and move on with life cuz complaining seriously doesn't help that much after all.
anyway, went out to orchard to get my Japan stuff, and I am telling you, japan trip is such a costly thing and to be frank, i am not quite looking forward to anything that is associated with this school.
ohh well, but yeahh bought a shirt and this pair of freaking bright shoes.

I am really going nuts man.

and yes, what IS the primary function of art in singapore?
*wait, what art?*

Love with bright stuff and weird taste that drives me crazy.

2006-05-20T17:04:00.000+08:00

capturing moments of everything is what I love and nobody can say anything about that.
well today was pretty tiring but relatively fun. had to reach school by 7.15 for the admission test duty and to my horror, many of our "future juniors" were there when I reached. ughh. anywayy mr koh assigned me and le-anne to welcome people with a smile and tell'em bla bla bla.

Registration started and my gosh, the queue was bloody long! but no time to marvel at the length of the queue or the scanning of ez-link cards (which i really wanted to try but didn't get a chance to) cuz we're to usher them to various exam venues. Once they started , it was stoning sessions til refreshments.

So, all in all, it ended with a session where vibrating tables and chairs were involved. oops, I mean, as you move'em, they sorta vibrate . lol

was talking to reema on the way home, found out that she's sick, funny, in cancer studies (with moi) and she's really nice! we had a good time laughing our ass of all the way til my stop. haha, at least something funny happened.

ohh and I am really beginning to love my new specs *beams* so I've decided to include a nasty pic of me with my GORGEOUSLY FANTABULOUS specticles to show my affection(?) for it. Me, nicole,jo and le-anne went to 7-eleven to get food, and this counter person was like "heyy cool specs!" then I was like yeahh :D woots and something really INTERESTING happ'd at 7-eleven between *ahem* and the counter malay dude who was really nice. FUNNY!
but yeah, it shall remain secret for now.
have you ever been pissed for no reason and tried real hard to figure out what? - as much as i hate to admit it,i have.

2006-05-19T16:56:00.000+08:00

a wonderful trip.
went back to tk todayy to sell tix for string concert with LiLing,Charm,Farah and Jing Wen. when we went there it was super hot and I was sweating like hell. lol then we were talking to the guards about signing in and all, then we saw this bunch of guys walking by our gate. They walked in and looked at us and said hi.

Apparently, they're here to sell tix for their drama concert as well, and were from st pats. haha then we're like freaking out cuz there's competition so we hurried down to the canteen.

of course, besides that, I met some of my wonderful tk friends. Julaiha was like screaming and wrestling me in the mid of canteen! wahaha. saw soph and jaz too, think they're really hungry after P.E or sth. *shrugs* jaz hit me a few times. lol. anyway it was good to see everyone. and we sold 11 tix! :)

then after that we sat down at our "booth table" to have lunch ; the wonderful TK food, but it didn't taste all that great today, dunno why. the guys actly stayed for lunch too! then they're PRAYING before the meal and it was like

.... thanks for letting us meet girls today and sell 4 tickets
let our meals be good and bla blabla.

so strange! haha anyways there's this guy amongst the group of'em who can do some real freakish magic tricks! it was pretty cool actually. he could read minds and do card tricks and there was this freaky trick where he made the initial you thought appear on his wrist. *shivers* but really, quite cool.

then LiLing, me and charm took 31 back with'em. They're quite funny but a little too loud. lol. then LiLing got scared cuz they were like " heyy let's chat with the girls " . aww so cute LiLing! haha X) anyway I guess I had fun todayy talking to strange guys who weren't all that bad. They looked quite retarded when they're running into their school after realizing they're an hour late but heyy it was fun for us! :D

anyway, the bus trip pretty much made my day.
of course, besides serena for making me feel better (it just did from my mood ytd) and yeahh. apologies for not being able to complete the jap songs.

We've gotta do work for cultural night. AND I have an SS test to sit for.
AND, AND, we have IP admission test tml and I signed up for morn duty which starts at 7.15 ! no sleep, blehhh haha gotta go out shop for jap stuff tml whee :)

can't believe so many people signed up this year, but I guess I can infer that our open house was a big success aye?

2006-05-18T19:50:00.000+08:00

contradiction is the worst thing in the world.
I think it really turns you off when someone SO nice, can be pissing you off so much at one point of time! I mean, y'know, you have things to tell, and for once you just want someone that could listen and care for you (or pretend they do) and then you realise they don't care.

ohh wells, I suppose life can't be that satisfactory anyway right?

todayy was pretty... sleepy. except the break talk I had with bus-mus-cus (LOL) and the SS test being a take-home test. well well joy to the world! >_<

I've gotta pass this test man , I mean , I need to bring up my SS marks seriously for term 2. it'd kill to get C again.

went out for dinner with mom after the x-ray thingy at the place behind heeren. forgot the name, but ohh wells. it's pretty cool.

worst/best thing of all is that this saturday i have to go out to shop, cuz my mom was actly saying I needed new t-shirts and the UGLY GROSS IRRITATING CASH-WASTING USELESS water resistant track pants/jacket.

Japan is such a costly country! :o

ohh btw, I 'm rooming with my groupies, who really enjoy bullying me. :x

I still like'em all cuz they're all nice people right ? wheee :)

chinese tuition now blehh :( as much as I dread it, it's hard for me to cancel cuz the teacher is pretty bitchy. dang.

deck the hall with kerosene fa-la-la-la-la-la-la-la-la!

2006-05-17T22:45:00.000+08:00

Starting afresh.
flushed all my entries, changed skin, removed tagboard.
not really a fan of kaiser chiefs, but I just liked the color splash of the image itself so who cares?

I guess you come to the point of time, where nothing seems meaningful to you, without any particular reason.
you sorta feel betrayed;when you thought someone was there for you and then you realise no one's there. then you feel down I suppose.

I dunno, everything just seems so, blank. it's like I am thrown onto a big piece of white sheet of paper and I, myself , is a blotch of white paint that no one can see as something that could be unique or whatsoever.
[yeahh I know you may say this sounds emo but ohh well]

I just feel #$%@!) now.
and I dunno what I am seriously feeling even, cuz everytime I see him I feel super strange.
and I found out, or so it seems, that they aren't there for me after all;they don't open up to me like I do to them. I guess our definitions differ in great amount and so does our feelings. so be it. I am too sick and tired to care for every single thing that concerns me.

It's just too much for me to take now. it has gone over the limit .

you're lucky that I have yet to explode. SERIOUSLY. you are.